Bam Bam Bingham Perry

It has been a while since I least wrote.

2012-02-13T11:04:00.000-07:00

Well I thought to share with everyone this web site I heard about. It is ldsjournal.org. I would really like to see others use it. But it is a personal choice. I have really loved it. I use it almost on a daily bases

Depending on were you want to stand at this time of year.

2011-12-27T15:36:00.000-07:00

I could take my luck as a bad thing or just something to let go. I ended up beign let go at work for some thing really dum. But I am looking at it as that I am glad to be able to realize how much I have. I am so glad to be able to do so much and be able to love the world I live in and well be glad to find something to make me happy.

Getting hit on by guys family

2011-11-09T16:44:00.000-07:00

Well I been working and minding my own business. When a mom came in to were I work and started asking my if I had a boyfriend or married. I was honest. Well after that his family has been coming in and hiting on me. I should say trying to get me to date him. Well I hate to say I really don't think that is going to happen. We are just to different.

Some may think I am nuts.

2011-11-01T11:51:00.000-06:00

Some may think I am nuts. I had gotten a black Lab back in june. I love this dog to death. She has been a good friend. I thought It would be nice to also have her have someone else besides myself. When I am at work. So I had heard there was some black labs at the animal shelter in Jerome. So I went in not thinking I would find one about her age and high as her. So I went in this last pay day which was Oct. 28, 2011 and picked up another black Lab. The Lab is a female. I had to have her spayed. Which the money I paid to get her covered that. I only paid 50 for her. My other Lab is not to sure but is loving the idea there is someone there to play with. So I have one named Esme and the other one is Juiette. That is actually pronouced Juliet. But spelled the french way.

Life is sending me curve balls.

2011-10-20T12:47:00.000-06:00

Well I have been having some curve balls thrown at me lately. Well I went in to have a Mamogram done on Oct.14, 2011. Well on Oct 17, 2011 I got a phone call saying that the doctor who read the exam found a spot and wanted me to come in and do anothe one. Well I went in Oct. 18, 2011 and found out it was nothing.

The blessing I am getting right now

2011-09-29T16:09:00.000-06:00

Well I am sure getting some blessings right now. I got a call to come in to feel some stuff out to start work tomorrow. I am so happy I am also feeling that the lord is blessing. I hope that this job well work and that I well be at it for a while. I have a feeling that I well be.

The joy of storage.

2011-09-22T18:35:00.000-06:00

Well about two or three weeks ago a friend asked me to spend the day with her. We went for a drive to pick up her pay check. On the way to get it we past a place selling peach and pears. I had told her something I wish I could can some. Wrong thing to say to her. We went back and picked up a box of peaches. I ended up canning the whole box. We did not get as much as we wanted. She was wanting to do some salsa and cucumber relish. Well I had grown a garden this year and had some zuccani I thought I could turn into relish. We then thought we would get another box of peaches. Well we ended up going to a place were they said if you buy four you get one free. Well I wanted at least a box of peaches and so did she. Well then I said I would do it on my own another day. That is of pears. Well she also wanted to do some pears. So we got two boxes of pears and two boxes of peach. Then so it was a toss up of what free. We decided another of peaches. Well we were busy canning. We ended up getting it all done. I have started something that I can not get out of doing now. I am going to keep canning if I can from here on out.

Protective puppy.

2011-09-12T16:29:00.000-06:00

My puppy has become real protective. She loves protecting me. But I was over at a friends one day and the friend and I were having fun with her son. Well my puppy start to attacking me and this friend. I think that my puppy really loves this friends son. Which I think it is going to be hard on her when he has to move to Yakamia Washington. I don't know if I spelled the town right. But when they move to washington.

We all do stupid things or smart things

2011-09-05T10:21:00.000-06:00

Well I thought when I confronted someone almost a week ago about something. I thought I had done something stupid. Know I am glad that I don't have those people in my life anymore. I don't want them in my life if they think they know everything and think that their always right and everyone else is wrong. I know that I make mistakes and that I am not always right. But I also know that the way my dog was hurt she did not run into something and hurt herself. Someone had to hit her good to have her favor her left hind leg. She was not herself cause of some shots that were giving her. As of the other day she now is back to herself. It took over a week to have her get there. I well never be friends with someone who has a temper worse then mine. I know I have a temper. But I also know that my temper well never get to were I hurt an animal.

We do human treat each other bad.

2011-09-01T14:22:00.000-06:00

I know I am not perfect and make mistakes. I thought I was handleing something the way I felt was best. Which ended up I felt like I was back in High School me and some people I know. We were all blame and not getting the truth out of things. I have never really stood my ground with anyone. It seems when ever I voice how I see things I am always at fault. That others are always right and I am always wrong. I have made some bad choice in what I have said to some people with in the last couple of days. I wish they would let me say I am sorry but will not. But at the same time I felt that I was being used in trying to help them when they went to court. Why do we as Humans hurt each other so bad.

Esme My puppy

2011-08-03T10:48:00.000-06:00

Well here is a video of my puppy playing in her pool. She has been a real joy to have

The Robert Bingham Family Reuion

2011-06-20T11:14:00.000-06:00

We as a family went to a camp that us as kids either went with as wards or girls camp went to. The name of the camp is Smoke Lodge. It is up by Alturs Lake. It is the same camp that we ended up loseing Angela at the age of 5. Well the first two pictures are right after we go there and the little boys wanted to find which cabin they were staying in.

Well it was so cuite to see them as cousins and as brothers being so cuite and been welling to go back and help some one to the cabin. I hope this well always a memory they well never forget. What they well never for get it. I am greatful to have found my little Mikey. It was the day before we were going to be going back home and we ended up losing Heidi's little red head Mikey. We as a family feel greatful to have another family in the same camp as us from Jerome who also knew Mikey. They jumped into action and took over the chance to find Mike who was found 20 minutes later. Which was a blessing to have such a wonderful family to help us.

Not doing good with blogging

2011-05-26T10:13:00.000-06:00

I have not been good at staying on top of blogging. I need to do better. I was told by someone they had saw a sign up at my former place of employeement. So I thought I would play dumb and text my ex boss and find out what was going on. Well I found out as of May 27, 2011 she well be among the unemployed. Well I wished her the best. I have been in the unemployeed for the past 4 months. I hope to be able to find something and soon.

Trent's little Angel girls.

2011-05-12T12:30:00.000-06:00

Shonee trying to get use to me and wondering who I am. She a cuite little girl for only being about 7 months old. But then again I will feel that way about all of my siblings kids. I am just glad to have seen both girls since they live in Wyoming. I hope you all enjoy this pictures of the girls taken of my mom and dad's house in Jerome. The one below is of Clariee with one of my mom's play horses.

I know I need to do better.

2011-05-07T12:21:00.000-06:00

I use to post a lot but as of lately I have not and I am sorry. I need to get a little better of posting. I hope to be able to do so. I really would also hope to let you all know that I am still looking for a job. I doing good with my Avon. I just hope to be able to keep doing it and also find a job. I have had a lot of people order.

Oh it has been a while since I last posted.

2011-04-21T11:04:00.000-06:00

Well I usally have been wanting to add pictures to my sight. But I don't have to do that to post. I need to at least let everyone know I am still alive and doing well. I am still selling avon if anyone would like to buy. I do have a website to were you can order and have it shiped right to your house. The website is www.youravon.com/jeanineperry. I am also looking for people who would like to sell it. I just took the next step in to leadership with the company and already have one person signed up. I would like to have at least another 4 people to sign up.

Last weighing for the Rec Challange

2011-03-29T11:02:00.000-06:00

Well on Monday was the last day to weigh in for the Rec Weight Loss Challange. We came in 4 place as a group which was not to bad I think. I had a feeling I would lose but I also felt that we were not getting the membership. Which I ws ok with as long as I am trying to lose weight right.

To let everyone know

2011-02-25T11:30:00.001-07:00

Well to let everyone know I am selling avon now. I do have a web site that you can order off. If you do want to order any thing off it. It is www.youravon.com/jeanineperry. If you order off this website the product is shiped right to your door. That is one thing that make it nice for those who do live in a different States that may want to support me. If anyone does it well be grateful and sure thankful for the support.

Things could be a lot worse.

2011-02-14T10:16:00.001-07:00

Well I could be down in a ditch giving up on life. But I am not doing that just yet. I am happy to say that no matter what I am still having a good out look on life and that is all I can say. I am trying really hard to find a job. But I a have faith that the Lord well help me find a Job that well be just what I need. I am thinking still along the lines of opening me a daycare out of my home. But I need to also ok it with my landlord who happens to be my mother. But I well not give up just on life and work.

2011-02-12T10:53:00.001-07:00

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What a long hard week.

2011-01-27T18:26:00.001-07:00

What a long hard week. Were my mom has been at Valerie's house watching kids. I have to get motivated to work out. Which I have and hope that it pays off this week. But I well know for sure this next week. I just hope that it will be all worth it in the end.

Well another good week

2011-01-25T17:28:00.002-07:00

Well I have had another good week. I just hope to be keeping such a good out look. At times things get very hard. To the point I need to focus on get it out in a work out. This week my mom is watching Valerie's kids so I am having a car to be able to go work out morning and night. I am hoping to be able to keep up the workout plan of working out morning and night of two hours each time. I am also hoping to add in a work out time during my lunch time also to be able to do really good this next week. I also hope to be able to keep the weight off also.

This has been a good week.

2011-01-15T10:34:00.000-07:00

This has been a good week. I have been really busy doing so many things. I am trying to do different things for Preschool. I am just hoping that my boss well be able to find a building before the end of April or I am going to have to find another place to work. The reason why I say that is that my boss has to be out of her building by the first of June. She could still find a place in May. But I don't think if she has found one by the middle of May that she may not find one. I just don't want to lose my job if I don't have to. I have really learned to love the kids I work with and I am starting to get the hang of things. But change is good.

Well I was hoping to go more.

2011-01-12T18:23:00.000-07:00

Well I was hoping to be going to the gym more this week. But I well be happy with as much time I get to be able to lose the weight. I am doing three different Weight Loss Challenge's and they all started with in the first week of the new year. I just hope to be able to keep up the good work and keep losing the weight. But I also have a blog sight that I well keep every one up dated with. If you look at my blog list it well be Jeanine's Weight Loss Challenge.

To keep everyone posted.

2011-01-11T17:50:00.003-07:00

Well I have lost 8 pounds this past week. I hope to keep up the good work and have lost just as much or more this next week. I have a mother who is going to make sure that I am going to the gym at least twice a day or walking or some kind of activity to be able to help me lose the weight. I hope to be able to do so.

Weighed in for last Challenge

2011-01-08T10:50:00.003-07:00

Well weighed in for the last Callenge today. Well I am doing three different challenges and hope that it well be to get a healthier me. That is my new year challenge for myself and hope to be able to do it. Valerie, My Mom and I are at least doing one of the challenges together. But Valerie and I are going to do three of the weight lost challenges. I am proud of us and hope that we well be able to do so. All the encourgement we get would be nice.

Well here is a New Year and new goals.

2011-01-05T17:55:00.002-07:00

Well here is a New Year and new year goals. Well it seems that gyms do programs to get people healthier. Well My mom and one sister convinced me to at least try to join two of them so I joined the Jerome Receration and Fitness. I hope to be able to be more welling to it and lose some weight. I have been eating a lot heathier and working out I just hope to be able to keep up with it.

Well on friday I got my last of the Twelve days of Christmas.

2010-12-27T17:10:00.002-07:00

Well on friday I got the last of the Twelve days of Christmas. I ended up getting a Santa Christmas stocking. It is really cuite stocking. It was full of a lot of cuite and fun items. To start off I ended up having a snowman headband, body wash, Subway gift card, apple, orange, lip gloss, candycane, and some small candy bars. I greatly love what I got and thanks again to who ever did it. I really don't think I well ever find out who sent it to me. I had a really good Christmas.

To put more about the Secert Elves and Twelve days

2010-12-23T11:17:00.003-07:00

Well I ended up going home on the fifth day and finding five items to make a meal. The 4 day I had 4 boxes of cereal. Yestarday I had a movie, pop, and popcorn. Today was a pair of earrings. I really wish I could say thanks to who is doing it. But that is part of the fun of not letting the people your doing it for know. Well I have some ideas but I well never really know. But still thanks.

I hope is well

2010-12-23T11:01:00.001-07:00

I hope this finds everyone in good spirits. I have been doing good and have really not been posting like I should. I need to do a little better in posting and hope to do so in the future.

Well I have not kept you up dated on the 12 days.

2010-12-20T18:29:00.003-07:00

Well I have not kept you up dated on the 12 days before Christmas. Well here it goes it started off with 12 roses, 10 hot coca and a mug, 10 fruits, 9 window clings, 4 packs of gum and 4 breath mints, 7 snack items, and 6 pair of socks. When I went home from work I did not have five yet. So I well have to post what it was in the next post I do.

2010-12-15

2010-12-16T18:15:00.001-07:00

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I have not kept everyone up dated.

2010-12-16T17:59:00.001-07:00

I have got more stuff from my secert elves. 11 days before christmas I got 10 hot coca and a mug. Yestarday I got 10 fruit. Today I got 9 cling for the window. I am going to be for sure really ready for christmas. It has been fun getting these items. Well thanks again to who ever is doing this.

Ok i have something new I checked out Thanks Melanie

2010-12-14T18:33:00.002-07:00

Well a cousin of mine kind of got me hooked on something and I am hoping am going to enjoy it. It looks like I well be able to do a lot of different scrapbooking stuff on this web sight. I also have a sight started on it. But you have to have a passward. If any of you would like to be able to get on to mine of it let me know your email and I well invite you and also send you the passward.

Well this holiday season something has happened to me

2010-12-14T17:29:00.003-07:00

Well this holiday season something has happened to me. I have a secert elves. How have been doing the twelve days of Christmas for me. It has ment the world to me. Cause I have been having some things going on at work that have kind of put me down. So to have some one doing this has helped me out a lot. I am in a better place with working then last season. But still means a lot to me. So I wish to thank the elves who ever they are. For making my Christmas season. It started of with a dozen red roses that I have on my desk at work and the kids are loving them to death. I got today 10 hot coca and a mug. It has ment the world to me to have this done. Again thanks to who ever is doing it.

I have not to good this year.

2010-12-13T18:25:00.004-07:00

Well I have not done to well of written on my blog this year. I quit my job at lamb weston back in march. I struggled for several months trying to find a job. Some one from the Jerome 3rd ward told me of a place that was hiring. I went in and applyed. I ended up getting the Job. Which I started Sept. 7, 2010. I am over the preschool part of it and has been a real challenge to keep things to keep these little minds active. But learning at the same time. I really have been enjoying it. I have been doing a lot of changing around in my area. Which this last change made it to were I can have these little mind staying active and still be learning at the same time. I just hope by this next year that my boss well be able to find a place to move to. Since she can't stay were she is at. I don't want to be out looking for another job. so I hope to be able to be in a new building with in the next 5 to 6 months. Other wise I well not have a job. If that is happens I am thinking that I may start a daycare of my own. That was the line or degree I was going into many years ago.

Day of Katie's Funeral.

2010-11-24T10:56:00.002-07:00

Well my mom, dad and I were on our way to the funeral of my cousin Katie. But we got to Hazelton, Idaho. Which is about a 20 minute or more drive frome Jerome in good weather. Well this weather is real crazy. I really wanted to be there for my Anut and Uncle and cousins. Plus also for Dennis (katie's husband). But when mother nature decides to play a part in what is going on. You have no chocie. I hope and pray they all know the family that can't be there wishes they could. We love you all.

There is a blog that is wonderfully put

2010-11-17T18:26:00.001-07:00

I am not trying to have attention to go to this family. But the way this blog is put I would love it to be shared with others. It is www.homeworksatthehansens.blogspot.com. I think that the spouse of my cousin is so strong to have gone through what he has.

Wonderful people and Katie

2010-11-16T18:26:00.003-07:00

I am going to try this again. I think I ended up putting what I wanted to put in here on my other blog. I have been crying a lot today. But I want to thank my cousins (Katie's siblings) for writeing some wonderful things about their sister. I really have loved that family. They have had their trials. But have been real faithful in their faith. It has been wonderful to get more of an insight through this cousins eyes of Katie. I well always miss you and love you Katie. I wish there could be away to share my love for her better than this. But Katie was such a wonderful person and a heaven sent to this earth. My prayers go out to her dear husband and kids. But also to Anut Janice and Uncle Keith and their kids. My prayers are with everyone in that awesome family.

Well was I wrong or stupid.

2010-11-13T10:31:00.002-07:00

I ended up telling some people to take a hick. I had a lot of different feelings going on. To were I did not really open up with them. Now I am trying to and they are telling me to back away. I guess that is what I get for telling them that it is over. What gets me is that they well tell me they want to talk so I listen but they are not welling to listen to me. I wish I could but who know they well probaly tell me I am crazy. Well I do want to let them know if they are reading this. That I jumped to something just like they have in the past. Plus the way I was getting talked to by one of them I should have not incouraged it. I should have stopped it when it first got started.

Why can some people not get the hint.

2010-10-23T11:31:00.002-06:00

I was written the last post just to see if I would bring someone out and it looks like I did. I know it was them that left the commet on my last post. I have forgiven. But I also know that they have not forgiven. Cause they are that kind of people and they are such a hard hearted people cause I was not trying to be mean or anything to them. I just was trying to tell them that I felt they need to turn to each other about things instead of going to others for things that are not right. I hope if they are reading this they know what I mean. I really wish I could have at least their kids a part of my life again. But that would have to include them. Which I really don't know if that would be a good thing cause of how they take what I text or write. I just would like to have some one I can turn to and trust. Which at one time I thought I could with them but I was thinking wrong.

Struggling.

2010-10-16T11:09:00.002-06:00

Well I am struggling right now. I keep thinking about a family. That I really don't want to be around. But I worry about how those kids of their are doing. I just wonder why that I have to be such a hard person to be around at times. But I guess that I part of life. We are sent here to this earth to learn and to come closer to our Savior. We have things put infront of us to test us. Even though it is hard we need to over come them. That is why I am trying so hard to realize that I need to let somethings go even though they are hard and I don't want to let some stuff go. But that is the way it has to be. I just hope to be able to forget this family and hope and pray that they are moving on and well not contact me. Cause it would be harder to get over them if they do try and get a hold of me.

Well I may not write that often.

2010-10-13T17:44:00.002-06:00

Well I may end up not written on this as much as my other blog. But I am still doing good. I am really hoping to do really good. I really have been enjoying how everything is going.

Man everyone is on the private list.

2010-09-29T17:45:00.002-06:00

Well everyone seems to be going on the private band wagon. This one for me is ok at least on not going to be that private. Which I do have another blog that is a lot more personal. I am ok with putting more personal items in it. If people get affended on that one. To bad I need a blog that is a little more private. Plus I can a lot more to it.

I keep changing my mind.

2010-09-16T17:57:00.001-06:00

Well I have so many different family members that come to this blog. So I thought I would reopen it up for all. But I do have a more private blog that well go into more of what is going on in my life. I just hope that I well be able to keep up with both. I am doing good. I am staying very busy with my life now. I just hope that everything well keep going good like it has for me. I think I found what I need to do. Which it well take a lot to do. I decided to go back to school.

I am letting everyone know I am ending this blog.

2010-07-25T20:50:00.002-06:00

I am letting everyone know that I am ending this blog. But I do have another blog. So that everyone can keep up with how I am doing. If you would like to know what my new blog name is please leave a comment with your email and I well send the new blog invite to you to the new blog. If you get something from sassysomethingsomething it is from me. I am trying to get away from letting someone haveing a chance in stoking me. So that is why I am going to go through and see if that person or people ask to have me invite them to my new blog. Sorry for the incovince. I just don't want everyone to have a chance to be able to get on.

We went to the july 24 Parade.

2010-07-24T11:14:00.011-06:00

Here is some pitcures from the parade that we went to. There is also some pictures of Ronald McDonald.

The one above has grasshoppers on it.

This one is of confrences or what it is like today

Just like primary or early day confrence.

The one above is a tonga marching group.

This picture above is todays medicane.

Mailman marching band.

I had to get some pictures of horse.

This one and the one above are music today and old times.

This is a picture of SaltLake as it was being built.

The Navuoo Temple

Part of a train.

Train that I thought kids would enjoy

Grandma, Spencer and Nicole with Ronald McDonald.

I hope that you all well enjoy this post. With all the pictures.

At Angela's House

2010-07-22T17:03:00.002-06:00

I put some pictures of the kids playing the night before so cuite. The next day some hot heads blowing up the swiming pool to let the kids play in the pool. I was one of them blowing. But stopped long enough to be able to take some of these pictures. I hope that everyone well be able to enjoy this as much as I have.

Going to Utah

2010-07-22T16:56:00.003-06:00

This was on July 20, 2010. We were all in ready to go to Tremont Utah. To see Angela and her family. It starts out with Miles, Spencer, Jarod, and Marjorie. I did not get a picture of Nicole. Who has been helping out with Marjorie's boys.

I still feel Young.

2010-07-16T11:11:00.003-06:00

Well inless then a week I well be turning 36 years old. Which to a kid is old. Heidi the other day thought she was going to be a year younger than she is going to be. Said I have another 5 years before I have to hit 40. Well I hate to say I well bet you there faster. Even though there is only 14 months between us. I think it is funny she is trying to make us younger than what we really are.

Well Life seems to be going on.

2010-07-13T10:39:00.002-06:00

Well life seems to be going on. No matter if I want it to or not. I am still struggling with finding work here. But wondering if I should go to Utah more and more each day. I hope to be able to find something soon or make that decison to go to Utah.

Why does everything have to be so hard

2010-07-08T11:48:00.000-06:00

Why does life have to be so hard. I have been out of a job for 4 months now. I really would have loved to have been back to work. But I guess this is part of life. I have to live with what I have to. Like making the choices I have. I really hope that with in the next couple of days I well be able to find something.

Patience

2010-06-28T09:34:00.005-06:00

I was reading this past weekend trying to get ready for the lesson we had on Sunday. To let everyone know what it was on in cause you want to read. It is found in the May 2010 Ensign by President Dieter F Uchtdorf. The title is Contiue in Patience. President Uchtdorf starts of talking about this Professor who did this test on four year old children. He placed them in front of one large marshmallow then told them they could eat it right away or if they could wait 15 minutes they could have two marshmallows. After waiting the 15 minutes 30 perecnt were able to wait. The professor then decided to test on other stuff. But kept track of these children. He began to notice the childern who could not wait struggled later in life and had more behavioral problems, while those who waited lended to be more positve and better motivated, have higher grades and income.

President Uchtdorf gos on later in the same talk and says: "Impatience, on the other hand, is a sympton of selfishness. It is a trait of the self-absorbed. It arises from the all-too-prevalent condition called "center of the universe" syndrome, which leads people to believe that the world revolves around them and that all others are just supporting cast in the grand theater of mortality in which only they have the starring role."

Well I have been thinking a lot about this I think that maybe I have been acting like this that everything is centered around me. I need to be a whole lot more patient. I don't like to be at time but I need to learn and do it.

Turning to the Lord

2010-06-23T11:32:00.002-06:00

We were studying David in Sunday school on Sunday. I don't rember the scripture but the teacher made a comment that here Golth had all this armer and David did not and David went running towards Golth. That He had faith in the Lord. Here I have been struggling with not having a job and not knowing what I really want to do with my life. I think of hearing and reading in the scriptures of the faith some people haad in the Lord. That I need to be welling to turn to the Lord myself. But why is it so hard to really what and hear what the Lord has to say to you. My mother has offered to have me come down there and see if I can find a job in Salt Lake. But I just don't know how I well be able to get there and how I well get back if I don't find anything. I guess I just need to keep turning to the Lord and he well give me an answer soon.

Having a very hard time

2010-06-17T10:24:00.002-06:00

Here it has been over three months ago that I quit my job. If it was not for some family members and the gospel. I don't know what I would have done. But now I am having a hard time. I really would like to be able to work. But I am also having a hard time wondering if I should move to Utah. I have been getting the feelings very strong. But not really wanting to leave were I am at. I guess I just need to really decide what I really want. What is stopping me right now is I don't have a car and no money to really be able to go down to Utah so I have to just do with what I can.

Long time of not doing a post

2010-06-15T14:50:00.002-06:00

I really have not been able to come up with any thing to really post. That is what has stopped me from posting lately. I have also been struggling in so many different ways the last month or so. I ended up quiting my job for many different reasons that I am not going to go into. I feel it was the best thing for me in so many different ways. I feel it was good thing in away cause of the end of my friendship a second time with the Carlock's.
Which brings me to some what of why I am posting today. I have been trying to find out who I am. That I think well be taken the rest of my life. But I worry sometimes what others think and that is another thing that need to deal with. I also have been thinking I should try and live my life the best that I can.
I have started to read Preach my Gospel the one for missionary's. I feel it may take me a while to get through it.But that is ok if it does. Cause it well help me find what i am really looking for.But in there I read something's that really hit home.

This next part is what I read. "Through the light of the gospel, families can resolve misunderstanding, contentions, and challenges. Families torn by dicord cna be healed through repentance, forgiveness, and faith in the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ. "Happiness in family life is most likely to be achived when founded upon the teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ. Successful marriages and families are established and maintained on principles of faith, prayer, repentance, forgiveness, respect, love, compassion, work and wholesome recreational activites."

I am not trying to judge anyone by putting that in here. But I think also that if your married it takes a lot of work. You need to be welling to turn to each other for help.

Life

2010-04-11T15:28:00.002-06:00

Today at church there was some real good stuff said. To the point I started to think about mine. I started to wonder what I am doing with my own life. Were I am taking my life. I also started thinking I need to also think of Christ. I have not done a lot of thinking of Christ like I should. If anyone could help on ideas of how to focus on him. Plus not wanting your life to keep from being down cause of now job.

We all make mistakes and chooses

2010-04-01T19:15:00.002-06:00

I had a job that paid me really good. I was making over 13 an hour. I had some stuff happened that maybe I should not take an action to quit. But I also did take the steps to avoid that also. I then kept have things happen that made me end up quitting. I really hope that no one well judge me for quitting a job like that. I also hope that people work that kind of work I did.

Life and trouble

2010-03-25T19:19:00.002-06:00

Well I really don't know why I even want to live at times. I seem to never have money to pay for things. I also been trying to kill myself with cars. I wrecked a car the first of Oct. Then I ened up getting another car thats engine. Then I ended up getting another car that having other problems. But I am also having problem with work.

Work and line going down.

2010-03-17T13:20:00.000-06:00

I had my mom call kind of frecking out but not really. I found out that an anut had told my mom some information that got through her job. The information is about were I work. My thought she heard the plant was closing. Then she found out that one of the lines was going down. So my mom called to see if it was the line I was on. The nice thing is that it is not the line I am on. If I would have stay on graveyard it would have been the line that I was on. But that does mean that my job is still at risk. It was in the paper and the paper did say that there is going to be over 120 lay offs. The line is not going down until Sept. That is what we have been told. We had a meeting March 16. I have a feeling cause of what was said there are going to be a lot of people quit. But I well just have to wait and see. I just hope that my job is stillgoing to be there.

Dog watching

2010-03-07T14:14:00.000-07:00

The friends that I had trouble with a year ago. Well we became friends again this past fall. Well the wife and other has seizures. Plus there little boy is having trouble with some stuff. I don't really rember what they are but people told the parents it would be good to get a dog to help with it. Well after they started talking they thought it would be good for the mother and son to have the dog. Well looked and found one that is small and already full grown. The dog really loves this family and has taken each of the kids as if they are her puppies. It had not even been a week after they got her the mom end up having a seziour. The dog was able to bring out of it. Which I am glad to know that she carers for each member of that family. Well this family decide to go out of town to the mom's parents house. Who do not a let animals in the house. So I am babysitting their dog. The dog I can tell is missing them.

Wondering

2010-02-27T21:10:00.000-07:00

Wondering why when I share myself that people ask if it is ok. I share how I feel or what has happened in my life or to help others to realize the evil that is out there.

Posting the last two

2010-02-23T14:22:00.000-07:00

I posted the last two post due to let mother's, father's, and grandparents. A friend of mine was trying to help a single mom and try to help her out. I was also doing the same. But this gals 5 year old cause a lot hurt. The gal made it seem like we were lying in what happened. When the cops were called about it we found that the first time it had happened. If this affinds some people for these post then u don't have to read my blog.

A little more about the last post I made

2010-02-19T13:18:00.002-07:00

I told about this speacil little boy. He is only 4 years old and it was a 5 year old little girl that molested him. The cops were called and what we found out is that this not the first time it has happened with this family. Which is really scary. To think that at a very young age these kids are having to grow up. I really hope that the mother of this little boy knows it can be hard but things well be ok. If she well turn to the Lord in helping her. I can't imagine what she is going through having to be the one who had to find it as it was happpen.

A really speacil little boy.

2010-02-18T16:27:00.002-07:00

I really don't know how to help this little boy who is really neat. There is a little boy who is really speacil to me. I was at the house of this speacil boy yestarday. While I was there this little boy was molested while I was there. I really wish there was some way I could help this little boy. The only way right now I can help is let him know he is speacil and that I love him. This little boy's mother walked in while it was happening. Which it has been really hard on her as well. I can only love her. She is of the same faith and all I can do is tell her to turn to her faith and her roots.

Anut Kaye I think you may enjoy

2010-02-10T23:04:00.002-07:00

Anut Kaye I have another blog that I am doing. If you go to were all my blogs that I have listed. There is one that is called speacil people. I also do that blog and would really like you to read that. It in a nut shell is my way of telling you thank you. I really love the rest of my anuts. But please Anut Kaye read this Blog. I am really grateful for what you have been trying to do.

happy birthday

2010-02-04T12:08:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Angela. Man you are making me feel old.

Stop posting and sending emails.

2010-01-22T14:04:00.000-07:00

I seem to be doing nothing right. I don't try to put things down to be hurtful towards anyone. I have decide to stop posting on this blog cause I seem to have put some hurtful stuff down. If anyone took it that I was bad mouthing anyone. They need to be in my shoes and have my feelings to know were I was at. I have a feeling people read this and say I am putting hurtful things in again. I am not trying to hurt anyone so from know on my mouth is shut. I do not care what people think cause I need to be happy with myself.

I hate moving

2010-01-06T09:34:00.000-07:00

I hate to move. But I am moving. I hope to be in this next week

New Year and new trails.

2010-01-05T17:33:00.000-07:00

Well it is a new year with new trails. Which no matter what we all have challenges but each year we can set goals to reach by the end of the year.

i want to see if this works.

2009-12-28T02:07:00.001-07:00

I want to see if this works. To see if by now that this blog is private. I don't want people to have any way to get to it.

2009-12-26T20:36:00.001-07:00

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

Ending this blog

2009-12-26T09:27:00.000-07:00

I am going to end this blog. I feeling that when I share things it does no good. If I do write I well make it to were it is just me. I well never really do anything good. I had a lot of verb stuff come back. To the point it made me decide to do this.

Not sure about anything.

2009-12-25T13:43:00.000-07:00

Not to sure about anything. I know that there is a reason why I am here on this earth.But really feel at times I really feel alone. I may have a earthly family and friends. But I really have kept a lot to myself. To the point I am not to sure.

This time of year can be joys or heart breaking.

2009-12-24T11:50:00.000-07:00

This time can be joys or heart breaking. We can take it how ever we want to take it. I have done something in my life that have come at a time of year that I could let be heart breaking.I have been asked to do something this that I could let hurt or just move forward and not let it get me. I was letting get to me. I got talking to a sister about a friend and what I wanted to do. She told me with the way the economy is right now follow my heart and I did. I got some things for this family and showed the mother what I was getting the kids for Christmas and started to cry. It ment the world to her. She felt some really loved her

To let people know.

2009-12-21T12:47:00.000-07:00

To let people know I have three blogs. This is my main one that I do a lot more on. The other two I either share thoughts from others or about one special person. If you to go to were my blogs lists are one well deep thoughts is one of mine. Also the other is care special people. I really hope that everyone this year has a Merry Christmas and a happy New Year.

I am tired of things. But thankful for time of year.

2009-12-19T14:32:00.000-07:00

I am tired of being poor. I am not to sure about why people have to throw things from your past in your face. I have been told several different things that if you really don't know what your talking about don't say anything at all. On that note I am grateful for this time of year. I know some people who can't get anything for their kids for Christmas. I told one person what I was going to do and the wanted to help.

Feeling like there is no were to turn.

2009-12-18T11:34:00.000-07:00

I have been feeling lately like there is no were to turn. My mother had told me not put family things on my blog. So I have tried not to do that. I try to put that there something that are going on and that it is my point of veiw. Like I tried calling a family member to talk. I felt like the black sheep and was treated really bad. I know I do what this family member did a lot. But know I also told this family member that they are dead to me. I don't really have anyone I can talk to. I have to move I am going to move the streets. I don't really want help from anyone it is something I have to learn. My mom had bought a car to have me buy from her that she now can keep. Since I well not be able to drive.

Life and trails

2009-12-17T11:58:00.000-07:00

I have been having some trails that can help in life if I let them. Back in October I was in a car wreck. It was the first one that I was in. I have learned that things happen at the worst time. I also learned I should not have a drivers licence. I really don't money to get the items I need to keep it.

getting kicked out

2009-12-15T22:44:00.001-07:00

Well I guess I deserve it. In May there was some family problems. To the point my parents asked a cousin to move in.Well then I found out that this cousin is moving out. Now my parents told me that a sister is moving in and since there was problems in May are asking me to move. Well I in away know or understand pain or hurt more than people give credit. I also know how it feels to not have a place to call home.

My Mom trying to help.

2009-11-14T01:58:00.000-07:00

I talked to my mother Thursday. She wanted me to agree to talk to her before I by another car. The hard part is she is in Utah and I am in Idaho. I just wish she was a lot closer. I have a car I want her to look st.

Wonders about life

2009-11-13T14:42:00.000-07:00

I seem to always have a lot on my plate. Why does the Lord always give you hard trails. I just would like to Learn things with such a hard time.

My dads birthday and some worries.

2009-11-11T18:55:00.000-07:00

Well today is my dads birthday. I called but my parents weren't together. So my mom had my call me and he sang along as I wish him a happy birthday wish was real cute. I think my dad is doing really good. I really wish I could at times have his out look in life. Some of us are real prideful. I know I am one of them. I was asked if I well ever replace the car I recked last month. I have so many bills that why should I have a car. But I also have to much pride to ask for help. I also need to lose weight so why not walk or ride my bike to help lose the weight. I was asked if I well ask a cousin and there spouse to my parents for thanksgiving. I feel I well stay home and enjoy a nice quite thanksgiving at home. I real don't know if I well have work of. I have so much on my plate that I wonder why I should care about life. I feel there really to much to I have to take of. I really wonder if anyone really knows my heart or what is going. I wish I would have someone I was married to share what is going on. But I also feel that well not happen in this life.

I didn't put my new family name

2009-11-08T13:52:00.000-07:00

I should have put Valerie's baby's name. The baby's name is Sophie. I got to see her and hold her for the first time. I have been so sick that I did want to give it to her.

If anyone knows Valerie

2009-11-08T12:56:00.000-07:00

If anyone knows Valerie she had a little girl November 2. Valerie and Heidi both have seven kids. My mom has 21 grandchildren.

this friend i posted before

2009-11-03T21:49:00.000-07:00

This friend I posted before about her neice. The neice was found and is home safe. She was having some problems that the family is taking on day at a time.

A friends niece is missing

2009-11-01T21:42:00.000-07:00

A friend of my mine her niece is missing. She had been emailing this older guy who they think she is with. The family would like to find her. I am trying to help the family out by letting as many people know that it can be past on. The family would like as much help to finding her. Her name is Sarah Cornia, she is 16 years old, she is 5'9. She was last seen at Wilkes Central high school in Wilkesboro, NC. She was last seen in her third hour class. She maybe with an older man named Carey Allen Clary (possible Clarey). Please feel free to help by passing on to help this family to find there daughter.

I don't know how to say thanks

2009-10-31T13:37:00.000-06:00

When it is hard to ask for help. You don't want let your pride down. I have for about three weeks been trapped in Twinfalls. I wish I was not so stupid. But I do want to thank the people who put up with me for three weeks.

worried about life.

2009-10-30T23:30:00.000-06:00

I am worried about life. I have so much I need to do get myself to were I need to be. Like I need a car. If I don't get a car I need to find some place close so I can walks

I hope my Angela well read this post cause it is for her.

2009-10-22T07:36:00.000-06:00

I just read a post by my sister Angela. I want her to know how proud I am of her. I would like her to also to know I talk about what she is doing with her small family and the teaching them part of who they are. This may be something she Does not want to hear. But I love you and your family.

Make decision

2009-10-21T11:30:00.000-06:00

I am not to Sure about some stuff. I reck my car to the point I don't know if I should get a place close to work.

Not haveing a car and been sick

2009-10-17T21:12:00.000-06:00

I have not had a car in about two weeks. I really am glad I didn't get hurt other then a little foot thing. Cause of it I have stayed with Friends to be close to work. Well they all had colds so I ended up getting one That is hanging on. I hope to be able. To get closer to work.

Not trying to buy friendship

2009-10-16T13:38:00.000-06:00

I was never trying to buy a friendship. I sometimes do thing to say thank you. I just grateful to still have a Friendship.

getting into a reck

2009-10-15T21:32:00.000-06:00

Well about two weeks ago I made myself carless. Meaning I don't have a car anymore. I am doing ok.I am just thankful to have a place to have stayed for so long. They only thing is that I got sick or a cold that is wipeing my back end.

Confused

2009-09-26T12:39:00.000-06:00

I started being friends again with the Carlock's. I want confused in how much should I do for them? I helped them out in different ways before. I just don't want anyone to get hurt.

I am taken one day at a time.

2009-09-22T17:09:00.000-06:00

I am taken one day at a time. I am glad to have in away friendship with the Carlock's. I just going to see how it goes.

Mistakes and choices

2009-09-20T00:56:00.000-06:00

I have made a lot of choices and Mistakes in my life. I also have had a lot choices made for me by other people. I was ever over doing something some stuff in April. That I did not want to really hear what was been said. I can something now that well make it hard for me to be there for this family I once just wanted to be Friends with. The past is the past it needs to stay there. I also have Learned my family may not always agree with me they well be there.

I know I worry to much off form friends.

2009-09-17T12:35:00.003-06:00

I had a thought a good friendship about six months ago.I was the one whp over did it. I read the Ensign September 2009 copy. About this gal who turned to a co worker. I was doing that with my friendship with the Carlock family. Now I worry that now that I am going to be one the same shift there well be problems. I don't want any problems.

Depression and work

2009-09-16T14:36:00.000-06:00

I seem to be under a lot of stress and depression. I have been taken stuff that I thought would help. I just need to start to find stuff to be happy about. I really do not like the idea that I have to work a job that makes me hot but I should be happy I even have a job.